Then, at the end of Exodus, its talks of how God's presence (represented in a cloud) would move and GUIDE them through the wilderness, until they reached the Promised Land. Thats when it hit me right between the eyes. (And this is where I get a little vulnerable before you.)
You see, pretty much everyone (well, not really everyone...but it feel like it) we know is pregnant...and last week I was really feeling the effects of it. My thoughts were just consumed by lies that sounded a lot like: "well if everyone is, maybe we should be?" or "Why are we being left out?"...and my joy for everyone else ALL THE SUDDEN changed to something that felt a lot like bitterness or sadness. Then as I sat down to do my Bible Study one night, God so graciously whispered this in my ear;
"The LORD will guide you always;
He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail."
--Isaiah 58:11
Ahhhh...how those words just washed over me and brought such peace...and then God worked the BIGGEST miracle of all. He restored my joy! I cannot be more excited about all our friends and family that are pregnant (congrats to Del's cousin, Mandy, who just had a baby boy!) And now, I can rest in the fact that Our Guide, Jesus, will tell us when the perfect time is to have a baby...and until then, we would be out of His will, if we took the situation into our own hands and based this HUGE decision on selfish feelings. And just like the Israelites, I want God and God alone to be our Guide, because the only thing thats left outside of it is a very barren desert.
So, naturally this is the verse Del and I are memorizing for Jan 15-31st! Welp, off to Date-Night with My Man!
4 comments:
Your time will come. And it will be awesome. I think as women this is something we will always wrestle with. I am on the opposite spectrum of this--all these people having babies makes me wish for "just one more." I think as women we will always be moved to want babies when we see others being blessed with them!
Oh, I hope this post didn't come across as a "poor me-post". Those were not my intentions. I just wanted to give God glory for what He is doing thru His Word!
No, it did not come across that way at all, I just wanted you to know that I understand how you feel.
I love you and I am praying for you ---thank you for being such a faithful friend (prayer warrior)--I miss you a WHOLE lot!
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